Monday, January 1, 2018

2017 was about survival. 2018 is about being grateful.

In late December last year I started reading posts on FaceBook wishing everyone a Happy New Year and saying that 2017 was going to be the best year ever, filled with love and happiness and new adventures. They were setting new goals and making resolutions. I remember thinking that I was happy for them and for their optimism, but I knew that for me and my family it was going to be a year of survival. And that's exactly what it was. The first six months watching and trying to help my husband survive and the rest of the year -- me and my family learning to survive without him. I've decided that part of my healing will be to get back to my writing so part of that will be writing my blogs again so this will be the first of, hopefully many.

In 2002 my husband, Roy was diagnosed with lung cancer. After going through chemo and radiation they ended up removing part of his right lung because they still detected cancer cells and he was blessed to have the cancer gone. But --  after the surgery the surgeon came out and told me that my husband had black lung and we found out what an ugly disease it is. Here's the definition:

Coal workers' pneumoconiosis (CWP), also known as black lung disease or black lung, is caused by long exposure to coal dust. It is common in coal miners and others who work with coal. Inhaled coal dust progressively builds up in the lungs and cannot be removed by the body; this leads to inflamation, fibrosis, and in worse cases, necrosis which means the death of the precious cells our lungs need to breathe. Roy worked in the coal mine for 22 years and the job that we was excited for him to get to better our family financially, ironicly is what took his life. Professions in which you breathe dust particles and other things can also give you black lung and so can smoking. So please protect yourself in your jobs and quit smoking and vaping and all that stuff! I hate to see anyone suffer like my suband did.

In reality, lung cancer should have taken Roys life, but for some incredibly generous reason, our Heavenly Father allowed him to live for fifteen more very precious years. These years were not easy for him, but he lived them as fully as he could. In fact, many people were suprised to hear of how sick he became and shocked when he passed as he never complained and up until the time he started wearing oxygen full time, didn't realize he was sick. Our family saw it though as it became harder and harder for Roy to breathe and just as I knew it would be, 2017 was extremely difficult. On January 25, 2017 Roy was taken by Air Med to the ICU at the University of Utah Hospital and over the next four months he fought with everything he had to live. On May 30, 2017 he passed away. 

June, July, August, September, October, November, December -- these months were still about survival, but now our family was learning to survive without Roy in our lives. The patriarch of our family, dad to our kids and grandpa Roy to our grandkids. The wonderful son-in-law, brother, uncle and friend. We've all found that grief is a very difficult emotion and we all need to deal with it in our own way. We are learning how to survive without him as a family and individually -- and we are even though we don't like it.

That being said, with what I've been through it would be easy to be bitter and angry -- but I'm not. In fact it may sound strange to many of you, but what I went through -- being by my husbands side as he fought to live was a spiritual experience for me. I saw miracles of faith and blessings of love and generosity bestowed upon Roy and our family. Even though there was much anguish, I felt the sweet comfort of peace as our Heavenly Father encircled us in his loving arms and I learned about what is important in life. 

I can't believe that a whole year has passed and, once again, I see posts on FaceBook wishing everyone a Happy New Year and saying that 2018 is going to be the best year ever, filled with love and happiness and new adventures and they're setting new goals and making resolutions. For some it will be. For some it wont. A friend posted a picture of a blank rock and the caption asked, "What one word would you put on this rock describing 2018." I knew right away that my word would be "GRATEFUL".  I am and always will be grateful for the gospel teachings my LDS Faith teaches me and the knowledge that we will be with Roy again. A loving Heavenly Father and the comfort He provides. My family and the love and support we have for each other. Wonderful, generous and loving friends. The power of prayer and for trials as I know they make me stronger. 

In 2018 my wish for you is to:
  • Spend every minute you can with your loved ones no one knows how much time we have. Any given moment things can change.
  • Assess your life and put priorities first! Time wasted is time lost
  • Quit wasting time and money on unneccessary material things as in the end they don't matter. The only things you take with you are family and knowledge. Your material things stay here
  •  Know that you will have trials and that you will get through them.
  • Appreciate what you have and give to others
  • Get the world out of your head! Spend more time with nature!! It's ok to step away from the commotion going on in the world and live in a peaceful place
  • Learn about Jesus. If you don't know Him --- you better start building a relationship with Him as He's IS your Savior 
  • Love unconditionally

 As I stated above, I'm going to really try to keep writing my blog as there are a lot of things in my head. AND, I have a series to finish. If you are reading this I would love for you to follow my blog and give me feed back. 

I'm praying that 2018 will be a healing time for our family and a wonderful time for all of you.



Wednesday, September 9, 2015

Where is your happy place?

The other day my grand daughter asked me where my favorite place is in the whole wide world. I told her - with my family and my bed, (it's so comfy). Since then I've thought about her question and one of my favorite places is my deck. Yes, the deck on the back of my house. It is where my family and friends meet to barbecue, eat yummy food & to visit and laugh about the past and silly things we've done. It is where we celebrate birthdays and where my grand kids play and where I watch them play. It's where I can sit and enjoy the beautiful mornings or look at the stars at night and think about what is beyond. It's where I read or write or just rest. It's a solace for me.

I was sitting on my deck and a cool breeze was rustling the aspen trees and giving me that lonely feeling ~ the one that tells me that the season is changing and fall is upon us. I look out at our garden and see a mass of tomatoes that are turning red and will be soon made into salsa. I look at the cucumber, squash and bean patch that has provided clean, healthy food for not only us, but our family and friends too. Beyond the garden our apple trees are loaded, waiting to be nipped with frost so the apples they can be eaten, bottled and dried. The black raspberry vines are finally bare as I've picked from them daily, freezing them until I have enough to make jam.

I love fall. Not only because of it's brilliant beauty and abundance, but because of the feeling. There's a ambiance in the air as the year matures.

I can't help but think about my life and how blessed I am. When I watch the news and know about the craziness going on all around me, I'm so grateful to live in my precious little corner of the world. I'm grateful that my happy place is so simple and with the people I love.

Where is your happy place?



Wednesday, September 2, 2015

I know it sounds silly to some people, but one of my favorite hobbies is bottling the food we grow. Some people call it canning, but I put food in bottles so I call it bottling. It's almost a year since I last wrote and I posted some apple and plum recipes so you may want to scroll back and look at them. I just bottled 27 pints of sweet cucumber relish and have some people asking for the recipe - so here it is:

6 cups ground unpeeled cucumbers
1 ground green pepper
1 ground red pepper
3 ground onions
3 cups finely diced celery
1/2 cup salt
3 2/1 cups sugar
2 cups white vinegar
1 Tbsp. celery seed
1 Tbsp. mustard seed

Grind veggies with a course blade on grinder. Combine in
a large bowl, sprinkle with salt, cover with water if not enough
liquid from veggies. Let stand 4 hours or over night. Drain
and press all the water out of the veggies ... DO NOT rinse.
Combine sugar, vinegar, celery & mustard seeds & bring to a 
boil stirring until sugar dissolves. Stir in drained veggies.
Simmer 10 minutes. Pack in clean, sterile jars 1 inch from top.
Water bath 10 minutes. Makes 5-6 pints. I 3x it and get 16

This relish is awesome on hot dogs, in macaroni salads, deviled eggs,
tarter sauce, (mayo, mustard, relish:) and mixed with tuna or chicken
and mayo for a yummy salad.

Have a beautiful day!



Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Life ... every day a gift

The name of this blog has been "Dare to Dream" but I've decided to rename it, "Life ... every day a gift." That doesn't mean that I'm finished with the Dare to Dream phrase, it just means that I'm at a different level now where life is still about dreaming, but it's also about doing, finishing and enjoying every day.

It sounds like I've had a close call with death or something. I haven't. But, I have had to make decisions the past few years that have altered my way of living ... and thinking.

"Life comes at you fast" takes on a whole new meaning at this point in life. Each birthday brings with it the thought, "What the heck? When did this happen? How can I be this old??" It was only yesterday that I was 18. I look back though and my life has been a whirl wind. I think I even knew it at the time, but I was so busy living each crazy busy day that somehow they slipped by me.

 As a kid, I grew up in a world where a kid was allowed to be a kid. Life was simple. Me and my brothers and sisters played outside and had to make our own fun. We had a TV but we didn't spend much time watching it. It had 3 channels and the TV Guide was our link to the world. Christmas advertising was looking at the Sears Christmas Wish Book.We had a lot of stores and people shopped in them. We very seldom went "up north" to shop in big stores. We grew a huge garden and had to water it through furrows with irrigation water from a ditch. Our garden was our main food source. We never bought processed food. It seems like we always worked. We sold night crawlers for .25 a dozen for spending money and I remember helping my brother, Ronny with his paper route. I cleaned old Mrs. Henry's house on Saturday mornings for .50. As teenagers it seems like we had a lot of free time as every minute wasn't scheduled. We would "drag main" looking for our friends or someone to hang out with. We went to each others houses and honked for them to come out, not text. Neighbors took time to sit on the porch at the end of the day and visit. Time seemed to pass slow then.

Then after getting married and having kids, that's when the whirl wind began and that's what brought me to this point - wondering where all the years went. I don't mind where I'm at age wise, but I sure don't like where I'm headed.

Sooooo ... that's the reason I'm changing my blog name. It's about living each day to it's fullest, enjoying life and sharing my insight and hopefully fun stuff with others.

Feel free to go back and check other posts I've written.



Monday, October 13, 2014



Italian plums are awesome! Cut them up and put them on your dehydrator and they make a yummy treat! It takes a while to dry them, but it's worth it.

 Here is my favorite fall plum recipe:)


1/3 melted margarine or butter                  1 1/3 tsp. baking powder
3/4 cup sugar                                              1/4 tsp. salt
1 egg                                                           1/2 cup milk
1 3/4 cup flour
Mix all ingredients together and pour batter in a greased, floured 9x13 pan.

Puree about a quart of Italian prune plums in a blender and carefully spread over batter.

3/4 cup flour                             1 1/2 tsp. cinnamon
3/4 cup oats                               3/4 cup soft butter or margarine
1 1/2 cup sugar

Mix until crumbly and sprinkle on top of pureed plums.

Bake @ 375 45 minutes and broil for a few minutes if you want it crisper.
Serve warm or cold with cream or ice cream.

This dessert is so pretty and YUMMMMMMY!! Kinda tangy tart:):)


Sunday, October 12, 2014


I LOVE to cook! And I am an avid recipe collector. I like tried and true recipes that don't use a lot of weird ingredients. AND...most of my recipes are definitely NOT for those watching their figure.

My APPLE PIE FILLING is in my last post so you can use it, or canned filling for a couple of these recipes. I promised more apple recipes so here they are:)


2 cups flour                                   3/4 cup oil
1 1/2 cup sugar                              3 eggs
1 tsp. salt                                       1 1/2 tsp. vanilla
1 tsp. baking soda                          2 apples, peel, core & chunk
1 tsp. cinnamon                             1 cup chopped pecans (optional)

Mix oil, sugar, eggs & vanilla. Add dry ingredients & mix well. Fold in apples & pecans.
Spread in 9x13 greased & floured pan. Bake @ 350 for 50 -55 minutes. If center not done, reduce heat to 300 and bake 10 more minutes.
(You can also bake in a 10 " tube pan and bake 1 hr. 15 minutes at 350. Cool on a wire rack 10 minutes before removing to a serving plate then drizzle caramel glaze over cake.)


1/2 cup butter or margarine
1 cup brown sugar
1/4 cup milk

Combine ingredients in small pan, stirring to dissolve. Bring to a boil and let boil 1 - 3 minutes depending on how thick you want your sauce. Spoon over warm cake. Serve with whipped cream.
 Sooooo yummy!!!!

((This is one of my favorite Dutch Oven desserts!)

Pour 2 quarts of my apple pie filling (Recipe in my last post)
(or 2 25 oz jars applesauce) into a 12" dutch oven. (Line oven with foil for easy clean-up)

Mix 2 - 14 oz. boxes of Gingerbread cake & cookie mix with 2 cups water. Pour over apples. DO NOT STIR.
Bake 45 minutes @ 350 in the oven or using 10 briquettes top and bottom of dutch oven

Serve with whipped cream or ice cream


1 cup thick applesauce                               1 cup sugar
1/2 cup shortening (no oil)                        2 cups flour
2 eggs                                                         1/2 tsp. cloves
1/2 tsp. cinnamon                                       1/2 cup walnuts (optional)
1 tsp. baking soda                                       1 pkg. milk chocolate chips

Put applesauce & soda in a bowl and mix. Set aside. In another bowl, cream shortening & sugar until mixed well then add eggs & beat until light and fluffy. Stir in applesauce mixture and sifted dry ingredients. Fold in walnuts and chocolate chips.  Bake @ 375 9-12 minutes on top rack.


4 cups sliced peeled tart apples (about 3 apples)
3/4 cup packed brown sugar
1/2 cup rolled oats
1 tsp. cinnamon
1/4 tsp. allspice (optional)
1/3 cup cold butter or margarine

Place apples in a greased 8-inch square baking dish. In a bowl, combine brown sugar, flour, oats and spices; cut in butter until crumbly. Sprinkle over apples. Bake @ 375 for 30-35 minutes. Serve warm with ice cream.

I have made some fun cookbooks for my family, but have never published one. That is on my bucket list though.

 I will post Italian plum recipes next:)

Please post any questions if you have any. Enjoy!!

Talk soon:)xo

Friday, October 10, 2014


HAPPY FALL!! This is truly the best time of year -- the foliage is vibrantly beautiful and the harvest is bountiful. What a blessed season!

We have been taking orders for the most amazing apples, grown at the base of the Monroe mountain and I promised to share some of my favorite recipes with those who are ordering. I decided to share with everyone! (If you live near Manti, Utah and want to order and pick up, let me know asap:)

This apple pie filling is the BEST!! We use it for dutch oven cobblers, apple pie and I open a bottle or two to serve with pork roast dinner. YUM!! Enjoy:):)

                          APPLE PIE FILLING

 4 1/2 cups sugar                                3 Tbsp. lemon juice
 1/4 tsp. nutmeg                                  2 tsp. cinnamon
 1 cup cornstarch                                3 drops yellow food coloring
 1 tsp salt 

 Whisk together sugar, cornstarch & spices in a nice size pan. Stir in 10 cups 
 water & cook, stirring until thick and bubbly. Add lemon & coloring.
 Pack peeled, sliced apples into clean, sterilized jars leaving 1" head space.
 Carefully fill with syrup. (Use a spatula to distribute syrup.) Clean top of bottle
 well before putting lid on or they won't seal.
 Water bath 15 minutes pints - 20 minutes quarts.
This recipe makes 7 quarts so adjust as needed. If you don't want to bottle the filling, reduce the recipe and just make a couple pies.
 *Best when used within 1 year*

  For Pie:)
  Prepare 8-9" crust. Put your yummy pie filling in and adjust top. Cut slits and
  Bake @ 400 for 50 mins.

More recipes to come...

Talk soon:)xo